Bombshell Booking

"i cant believe we even got this far"

2006-01-08T20:47:55Z

"send me to bed.........my heads drowning out.........the thick and blury sounds of horses on the highway..........the days are running down and im drowning out.............the overwhelming sounds...........semd me to bed............and tap out the lamp........in the dark the colors fraile......to the shades of grey and lilac.........but the cities fireflies........watch the birds who will fly...........like an overwhelming sound...........i must be drowning out..........the roar of the engines.........as they escape into night......the stillness of laughter............the long last strands of our lives...............they dripped out the window..........they dripped out to sea........and then i will fall asleep...........to an overwhelming sound............."

serotonin and norepinephrine

2005-11-23T20:32:21Z

improper balance could be deadly

bombshellbookin @ 2005-09-29T15:43:00

2005-09-29T21:46:18Z

i have come to the conclusion that everytime we close our eyes will be the best time of our pathetic little lives, it goes along with complete isolation, when a person might ask himself, is this really worth it?

"its self destruction at its finest hour, its self destruction at its finest"

2005-09-25T08:57:06Z

i think apathetic works.............

"the future seems to fall short"

2005-09-19T00:16:45Z

were speaking the truth from the sense we made from our own lies

these cuts run deep these scars are permanent there always on display

2005-09-10T08:21:01Z

Saturday afternoon, me, candice, herb, and a movie....should be nice!!

bombshellbookin @ 2005-08-17T01:40:00

2005-08-17T07:40:36Z

feeling like shit.....i guess everything seems to repeat itself somehow

bombshellbookin @ 2005-08-02T17:36:00

2005-08-02T23:36:18Z

the frustration sets in.....

hey

2005-07-31T09:25:13Z

its crazy.......i have been workin a lot lately, too much i have a day off tomorrow though, i think im just going to relax and not really do much, i have been partying alot and feel drained, so its kinda late and i think i want to sleep so to anyone who reads this goodnight

p.s. jess, text me now!

bombshellbookin @ 2005-07-30T15:25:00

2005-07-30T19:39:23Z

well these last couple days, talking to Jess a lot has been great........ last night at work was kind of weird cause of a certain factor.

lalala lalala

2005-07-20T07:24:52Z

so its like 130 and i am fucked up are at least i think, so it was fun the other night, me and jess wrote a lovely little story, i talked to her like all day the other day it was nice, apparently i fell asleep on the phone which is crazy cause yea i really like talking to her, i dont really know how she feels i dont really get any of the little relationship we have, sometimes i feel so close to her but other times i feel so distant, it weird cause she doesnt live here and i know where she lives there are alot of guys who like her so why doesnt she just start seeing them instead of this whole complicated mess, its kinda hard to cause maybe she does like those guys and really just doesnt say, or maybe im thinking about this whole thing to much. so i guess im gonna go to sleep now.......or maybe drive myself crazy thinking about things either way will work

the lights go down.......

2005-07-12T08:54:43Z

so tonight was alright........how about for you?

bombshellbookin @ 2005-07-08T18:01:00

2005-07-11T10:32:25Z

do i ever cross your mind?......

bombshellbookin @ 2005-07-07T10:43:00

2005-07-09T10:07:12Z

all around good night tonight......

maybe im not the one whos crazy

2005-07-08T04:43:57Z

why are you doing this

bombshellbookin @ 2005-07-04T16:09:00

2005-07-05T23:53:23Z

i feel sick or maybe its all in my head

bombshellbookin @ 2005-07-02T18:13:00

2005-07-03T21:15:20Z

hey....

bombshellbookin @ 2005-06-25T12:32:00

2005-06-25T22:21:08Z

so here i am, i dont know whats going on anymore, i feel horrible inside, i think im going to look for a new job i no longer want to be around music, i feel that i have lost something close a special bond. when anyone was ever a little kid do you remember pretending to be invisible so the "bad guys" couldnt get you or you could just hide from anything that could hurt you? it sucks were not little kids anymore and it sucks we cant pretend.

im so scared of what your saying

2005-06-23T09:00:08Z

hey..........jess i miss you, im sorry we dont talk, i know how you feel and im being an asshole, i can understand why you deleted your journal and whatnot, maybe things could change...............hopefully for the better..........lately i dont know what has been going on( i feel so stupid writing in this journal) i feel stupid for being led on....i cant keep doing this.....i think i may move to new york, i would be nice to start over brand new and meet a whole bunch of new people who know nothing about me, i would almost be perfect,the more i think of things the more i want to selfmedicate (if anyone knows what that means) i feel so fucking bad about everything, i dont know what to do

bombshellbookin @ 2005-06-21T13:26:00

2005-06-21T19:26:31Z

i dont get this

moving floors

2005-06-16T23:12:06Z

last night was pretty crazy first it was really fucked up but i dont want to talk about that part, however in the late night fun was had with me, dane, jessica, and erin-kate, the hot tub was great and the kiss was weird, we but what can you do?

just wondering

2005-06-13T00:05:49Z

i hate this stupid journal, i hate people, i hate music, i hate the way you make me feel, i hate what ive changed into

i need to get out of this stupid town

........

2005-06-02T19:46:28Z

i hate not knowing anything, i hate not being able to help because i dont even know what is wrong, dont i at least deserve to know whats wrong?

king cobra and mickeys never fail

2005-05-28T23:57:04Z

schools out, lately things have been really weird, me and jess are talking again, not a whole lot but its nice were talking, on another subject why do i feel like everytime something goes wrong it has to be put on me. I dont think any of you will know what im talkin about but thats ok but dont worry jess its nothing bad about you or anything just in case you were wondering.

"cause i know i can write my way out of this"

2005-05-20T00:16:22Z

so the day was ok i guess well actually no not at all, overally shity day, i didnt get much work done, i hung out with jewels at lunch that was kinda fun, we dont talk though, and if we do its just usually dumb insults that dont matter, however when i got home is when things started to look up i met with some friends chilled for a bit blazed a few bowls and then came home, i got online i hate the computer, makes everything so impersonal, i was talking online and somethings i just cant handle and i have my own reasons and jewels im sorry things ended up the way they are.........i really dont know what else to say, i have to go to work in like an hour im not in the best mood, this journal is stupid, it is weird how people get so used to a routine that they dont even realize how bad there making things for themselves, whoever is reading this is prorbably like wtf? but i have my reasons for saying all this, just maybe wish one day everything wont be so gloomy.